In Need of a Break

Tonight was our staff Christmas party. It was a ton of fun, even though I ended up with this pathetic t-shirt from the white elephant exchange (I can't believe I gave up purple striped arm warmers for that!). The good thing is that I'm probably going to another gift exchange where I can unload it. The best part was playing extreme ping pong, starting out with the preteen girls, and somehow it turned into a few of the twentysomethings by the end of the night. 

On the way back home, Erin texted me. I realized that, other than the Christmas party I just attended, I had nothing to report about anything, especially not any good news. I kind of got in a slump, and began thinking about everything I had set out to accomplish this year, and have done nothing to work towards them. Some things it seems like I even gave up or took a step backwards on.

I don't think coming to Rivercrest was a mistake by any means. God definitely called me here. But I am beginning to question if this was ALL God called me to. After all, the internship only lasts until summer, and then I'm on my own, and I have no idea what to do. If anything, this internship has only brought up more questions about my life instead of answers. And, right now, I'm really not hearing anything. 

I'm definitely in need of a break, which is good because that's exactly what I'm getting come Wednesday. I'll have a week and a half off enjoying a change of pace, and then maybe (hopefully), coming back to Camp Rivercrest will be refreshing instead of unfulfilling and incredibly mundane. And maybe the different surroundings will help me to hear God's word better, so that I can act on it. I really hope I can act on it while still interning, but if for some reason God tells me otherwise, I'm willing to go (but I will cry and quite possibly throw a fit!). 

So to make things clear, I have NO PLANS OF QUITTING. I don't even WANT to quit. I just think that there's so much more out there that I'm missing out on... and I intend to find it.